It’s late and this is long:

So what’s it all mean? The election certainly didn’t go the way I expected. I never, ever, would have thought we’d elect a man so thoroughly repugnant. Although the word “values” is more often than not a coded word for intolerance and misogyny, I am grateful for those basic lessons instilled in me by my parents. A good chunk of how I live my life now comes from the Boy Scout Law: a scout is trustworthy, loyal, helpful, friendly, courteous, kind, obedient, cheerful, thrifty, brave, clean, and reverent. I have my problems with the Boy Scouts as an organization, but I can’t fault that Law. It’s a group of abstract nouns that help me gauge the general quality of my life and how my life effects those around me. I don’t know about our next president. He scares me. His rhetoric scares me. His fascist tendencies and authoritarianism scare me. But I’m powerless tonight over anything but my own actions. So I’m coming to this blank page to see if I can chart a path. Words are, after all, my trade. Tomorrow, I’m going to get up, tell my daughter and my wife that I love them, go to yoga, go to work, come home and make dinner for my family, go be with my tribe at my normal Wednesday night gathering, and ask myself what I can do to make the world a better place. In short, I’m going to try to live by many of those Law tenants. I so want to hide my head in the sand for a while. I so want to just go about things as if nothing has changed. But the only antidote is action. I don’t know what that action is yet. I don’t know what it is that I can do in my community to help this ugly haze dissipate, but I know it involves being with my community. I know it involves the work I do teaching. I know it involves the people I know at yoga, in my town, in my recovery groups. I know it means I need to read even more. I know it involves more learning. I know it involves work, physical and mental and emotional. I know it involves discovering a deeper awareness of all things relating to social justice. I know it involves kindness and love in all directions. When I was watching the election results, I called one person on the television a “pile of shit.” My daughter was in the room. As soon as it left my mouth, I knew how awful it was that she had to hear me say those words. How had I become that guy? The guy that calls other human beings such vile names? That sort of thinking or speaking cannot be the answer. I’m going to need to be better than that. Love in all directions. It sounds phony and hippyish, butI can’t see any other way through. Hey, I’m a fifty year old white guy. Things probably won’t change too much for me, at least not right away. At least not if the new president doesn’t nuke something in his first 100 days. I’ll probably lose a lot of that retirement money I’ve been socking away. The economy will probably keep going just enough that I can keep my job. But it’s not me that I’m worried about. I’m worried for my daughter—our daughters—and for anyone with dark skin or anyone who came here hoping to find a better life but might not be here legally yet. Hell, I’m worried about a lot of stuff. But I was worried about a lot of other stuff last week, and worrying didn’t help anything then either. I’ll have to work on an antidote to worry, too. It’s going to be a tough four years. I know I’m rambling. It’s late. I’m tired. I’m trying to fight off despair. So forgive me this late-night missive. The sun’s going to come up in a handful of hours. And I’m going to get up with it and see if I can get busy doing the things that need to be done.

2 thoughts on “It’s late and this is long:

  1. Those twelve spoken words you used that are known as the Boy Scout Law are also words I tend to live my life by, or should I say, Strive to live my life by. There are also three phrases that go along with those twelve words and that is the phrases of the Boy Scout Oath:
    On my honor I will do my best, to do my duty, to God and Country,
    to obey the Scout law, help other people at all times, and keep myself physically fit,
    Mentally awake, and morally straight.
    Those three phrases represent duty to God, duty to Country, and duty to self, in that order. I believe that that the three parts of the Oath are the foundation that this country needs. Agree with me or not, that is your choice. I choose to keep the faith and keep my christian beliefs in the front of the path we now walk. I choose to put my volunteerism to supporting and making the country better, whether it be through local athletic coaching, state boards and associations, or federal efforts sitting on the AFG grant boards. My path will not change because a different figure head is on the oval office. My path continues down the path at doing the best I can to obey the scout law, to help other people (putting others before myself) and then trying to take care of myself, something I regretfully fail at.
    As we look to future expectations, I keep an open mind. I keep the fact that Trump is not a dictator and we live in a democracy where the House of Representatives and the Senate must also weigh in, on the direction of this country. I keep an open mind that Donald trump, truly believes that his mission is to Make america Great. I can’t say it any better than one of the voters interviewed by WMUR and broadcast on tonight news. “We need to work together to move forward”. Those words resonated with me! Those words encourage me to continue my involvement in the community, at the state level and with federal opportunities as they come available.
    I keep my faith that this country will see the divide that is ever present and realize that something needs to change with the political process we are forced to accept. There were no viable candidates on the November election, but we got what the people wanted. Well, at least those that actually voted in the primaries. Record number of turnout voters at the presidential election is repulsive to me, as someone that actively promotes participating citizenship. It is repulsive that society chooses not to vote in the primaries and are forced to settle betwee two lousy candidates. This primary specifically where there were several better options on both parties. Wake up America, you have what you deserve. Like it or not, the sleeping monster awoke and has voiced their opinion on the displeasure with Status Quo. This election is a political reset and the faith I keep and the promise I make to myself, is to carry on and continue to be an active participant of government, continue to put others before myself, continue to hold doors for people and pick up trash in my path. I vow to myself that no matter whomever lives at 1600 Pennsylvania Avenue, I will continue to upheld my end of the bargain of being a United States Citizen, supporting in any way I can, and voicing my disapproval with the form of government we have become accustomed to. I know that whatever the executive decisions are in this country, I know we have an option to change the resident at the above address in four more years. The next election should bring everyone out of their hobbit holes and vote for their candidate. Do your part! Craft this country as one of the “We the People”.
    To you my friend, remember that his actions are not yours. His decisions and choices will reveal his true colors. Should it be that he is the one that can make a difference, I embrace it, should it be that he is not the leader he thinks he is, then I have the ability to share my voice of concern and vote in the next primary, aligning myself with the candidate that most aligns with my views. Living the Scout Oath, and Law, are how I strive to live my life, and in so doing, I am ready to “Work together and move this country in a forward direction”. Peace out to you, you friendly hippy.

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